Yes that, I had one of those tonight. After a long day full of thinking these wonderful thoughts.... "what is wrong with me... what is wrong with who I am... how I handle situations???"
Repeat that about 51 times and you have my day.
My husband came home to a crying wife which resulted into, a freeing, 2 hour conversation... about faith, parenting, tough decisions and the person I am and want to be.
I realized today that up until today I have lived my entire life (seriously the ENTIRE thing) seeking the approval of others and worrying a ridiculous amount about offending others.
It occurred to me that I over analyze every.thing.I.do.
I questions everything I post on facebook, my blog, send in text, email, etc.... I run phone conversations through my head 10 times before I call the person or don't say how I really feel because I am afraid I might lose a friend.
I questioned myself to the point of tears today and that is when my sweet husband helped me work through all of my insecurities.
I even question posting this in fear if will come off as me seeming weird, but none-the-less, it is me. Not something that I fully accept or love, but me.
There is something so freeing about vocalizing your insecurities to someone rather than, what I have done 6,246 times in the past and kept them bottled up inside.
Correct! It doesn't change who I am overnight, but it sure helps me feel a hell of a lot more confident in tackling this in the days to come.
I will still be nice and tactful
for the most part on this blog, but there may be a bit more vulnerability too.
My desire is that Crewe can look back on this timeline of his life and learn from me,
what he is too young to understand now... that life is hard, but life is beautiful and you have to embrace it all to fully live.
MAN THAT FELT GOOD! Like digging the dirt out of a concrete crack good!
Yes, I realize that these pictures have absolutely nothing to do with the post,
but they help lighten the mood some.
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