Enjoying

Not worried about blogging, not overly worried about taking picutes just enjoying the days with my little man and big man.

 

I think there are always times that it is important to put some things down so that other things can be picked up. I have been having some serious tugs at my heart to opt out of the social media world altogether as I think it occupies so much time that could be spent doing other things, but alas I am still here. 

 

We haven't done anything too exciting or eventful but stuff, none the less, that fills my days and makes me happy. The things that seem so insignificant about the day, are the things that John and I sit and laugh about at night.

 

 

Like the dents that are developing in our baseboards from a car loving two year and the humor he finds in crashing them into the wall (ask me how I feel about those when it comes time to put our house on the market)

 or his love for shutting the dryer door 50 times while I transfer the laundry

or the fact that he NOW loves naptime because mommy lays on the floor and cuddles with him the whole time.

Yep he figured that one out quick and I fell for it.

That is just our life now and I am okay with it, some aspects might suffer, but I am enjoying the slow down.
 

There has also been a lot of meeting daddy at the park for lunch, swinging, playing on mommy and daddy's bed after dinner (one of Crewe's favorite pass times), ice cream sharing, geese watching.... (... is my transition for when I don't know what punctuation to use, in case you hadn't figured that out yet)  just soaking each other up... enjoying. Nothing pressing, no schedules.

 

 

Happy, almost, weekend!

My Ministry

There is something about getting out in the fresh air that clears the mind and enables you to think a little more straight, which is just what Crewe and I needed. I keep making excuses as to why not to get out of the house, when if really just boils down to the fact that I hate to be cold.
 

 

Yesterday I made it happen. Crewe has been my little hip baby ever since Daddy came home and his sleep has been hit or miss, so I have been feeling sorry for myself lately.

 

We got out the little wagon he got for Christmas and walked and walked and walked and it was glorious. I wasn't telling him "no"  every other sentence and we were able to just enjoy each other completely.
 

 

The more my negative days are mixed in with the good, granted the negative are far outweighed by the good, the more I am understanding that my ministry right now is in my home.

 

I have been going through a search, so to say, of way I feel like everyday is the same thing over and over. Asking things like....Is what I do everyday even going to make a difference in the world or would I be better off at an 8-5 (cry me a river), but that is how I have felt.
 

 

 There is good in this search though because it is stretching me, molding me, changing me and the good kind of change. The change that makes you a better you. The change that makes you want to go climb Mount Everest and scream your heart out that you did it, when you get to the top.

 

 The search is leading me to learn that my ministry IS doing the laundry, cooking the meals (with a glass of wine), making the beds, nurturing Crewe, taking care of my husband.

 

It IS making our house a home.. a warm, welcoming place for us to escape the world.

 

It IS making sure my desires and heart are lined up with God and nurturing Crewe's little desires and heart to be the same.

 

It IS to provide a center of life for all who live here.

 

It IS being all the things that I have felt for the last 2 years are not contributing to my family in a big way or having much of a ministry at all.
 

 

But you see if I can make my home my ministry and find joy in that task everyday I CAN affect eternity! Because the home I am creating for Crewe WILL effect who he chooses for a wife and the values of a mate he holds high. It WILL effect the home he wants to create for his children and it is a domino effect from there.

 

And you know what??? I hold all of that in the palm of my hand right now, it is mine to decide what I want to do with it. It is completely and utterly my choice. Oh how that makes my heart flutter with excitement and realize just how big my ministry, that I once thought was nothing, IS.
 

I think back on starting my journey with the Crazy Wrap Thang and my "why" for wanting to work from home. I wanted to be able to bring a little bit of income in to save for a family vacation once a year. In my head I HAD to have these monumental vacations once a year so that my son would have fond memories of his childhood.

And while that "side job" has allowed us to take a monthly vacation if we chose... it is not some once a year BIG vacation/ memory that is going to shape my sweet babe... it is the day to day little moments that are going to shape him the most. The kissing of ouwies, the rocking at night, the dinner time prayers, the patience through fits, the walks around the park, playing peek-a-boo behind a tree.

Oh how I had it so backwards.
 

So Crewe, thank you for taking me to the edge and back with your sporadic sleep and 24 hour need of me. I will never have these years back with you and one day I will be wishing you were under my roof, wanting to sit in my lap, on my head, and pulling on my pants. God is doing big things in me, through you.

"Wherever you are right now - BE THERE ... that is where God is - with you - right there - right now"- Christine Caine 

 

Sweet Moments

It dawned on my a few nights ago that Crewe has NEVER experienced donuts in his 2 years of life, so we set out to change that deprivation today.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Up next... powdered donuts

Happy Saturday!

So much opportunity

I have been thinking a lot lately about how negativity enters our everyday lives, how our thought process molds how we act and react, how if we do not capture our thoughts they will rule who we are. I want to be real on my blog, but even in the bad I really want make lemonade out of lemons.

I am not sure that always comes natural.

 

My most loved blogs are the ones that seem to make even their bad situations seem desirable. That sounds so weird, but they don't act like their life is perfect they just chose to put more of their focus on all the good.

 

I WANT THAT! I want that to be the legacy that Crewe and our future children have to read about. How their parents chose to find all the good in life.

 

 

Changing any consistent way of thinking takes work. It is not something that is going to happen over night nor is it going to be easy, but if you do not exercise that muscle it will never grow.

 

“Optimism is the most important human trait, because it allows us to evolve our ideas, to improve our situation, and to hope for a better tomorrow.” ~ Seth Godin

 

Even though I try to stay true to the reason I started blogging, so Crewe will have a MASSIVE baby book of sorts, if I am honest I have gotten WAY to caught up in that little number next to members. I find myself trying to structure my posts to speak to all of my followers more than speaking to my reason for this blog, Crewe.

 

 

Lets be real, 40 years from now all my followers are highly unlikely to refer back to my blog, but there is a pretty good chance Crewe will.

 

Why is it the more followers you have the more it seems like you are validated as a person and by others? Is it just me?

 

We should search for validation in God alone.

 

It has been on my heart for a while that I have been slowly veering from the direction I want my blog to go and I am still working through why followers on a blog, friends on facebook, followers on instagram seems to equate to validation in the people we are.

I'll muddle this over in my head as I end the year, but I do think that Dr. Seuss dude knows his stuff... so I will end with this.